Walking on Egg Shells

Letting it all out; Letting people know who I am, how I feel, what I think. Of course my intentions are not to hurt people’s feelings, but to express myself. What is the point if I am afraid to speak, afraid to act, afraid to do? Then what am I living for? Can I really say that I am living if I am afraid to show who I am to others?

I want the freedom to say no, freedom to say I don’t like this or that. Freedom to tell someone: I don’t like the way you talk to me, I don’t like the way you look at me, I don’t like the way you treat me. I am worth more than those words, deeds, and looks of negativity that you give me. I don’t have to tolerate it, I don’t have to accept it, I really don’t need it. I want that freedom to let you know what is on my mind. I am tired of being quiet, I am tired of holding my tongue and biting all that is within me.

But I do have the freedom to speak life, love and encouragement into someone. I do have freedom to tell someone I love them, adore them, cherish them and appreciate them. I am free to tell someone what I like about them. I can tell someone how their positive words, deeds, and looks impact me with love and encouragement. I am free to love unconditionally. I am free to show mercy, to extend God’s loving grace and everlasting love. I am an agent of love, an ambassador of mercy and grace. I am a product of love, mercy and grace. I can’t help but to let it pour out from my life into yours.

Because of this love, mercy and grace that has been poured into my life, I can tolerate the words, deeds, and looks of negativity. I can accept it, because I take it all and go before my heavenly father and lay it all at his feet. I give him my hurt, embarrassment, frustration, pain and tears and in return he gives me his love, peace and joy. He downloads his love for me which compels me to love. I can now turn to you to demonstrate His awesome love for you.

I will not close myself off; only a heart exposed ready to love. I will endure and bear it all for the sake of Christ. I will turn the other cheek so you can see the Christ in me. Turning the other cheek and extending love and mercy to you, you will see firsthand the gospel of Jesus Christ- the gospel of grace displayed before you. Then you will turn to Jesus and be captivated by His love gaze. You will embrace his grace and enter the love that has set you free.