I want to say thank you for what you have done for me, you have given me something far precious than anything you could imagine. You were used for a special purpose. You brought me to a place of peace and eternal joy. You were used to push me to rely on something bigger than you and myself. I had no choice but to trust and rely on God.
In high school, I pride myself in my academics and achievements. When I graduated and went to college, I was confident and full of enthusiasm, but it didn’t take long for that confidence and enthusiasm to die. How could this happen, this couldn’t happen to me, C’s and D’s, what in the world is going on? My career, my future rested on these classes and grades. My world was crumbling before me; my self esteem had been crushed to an all time low. The pride I had in myself and achievement were no more. I was sweetly broken. Kneeling before my God, I cried out for help, crying out in frustration and fear of my future. There was no more certainty and excitement; there was darkness and fear.
It is interesting how the first beatitude in Matthew 5, mentions those being poor in spirit will inherit the Kingdom of God. Sophomore year this verse described me. I had realized my need for God. I knew I wanted God, but the realization of my need for him had become real and obvious. I was poor in spirit, I needed His Spirit. I needed His life, I needed His Word. I needed a love that would revive me and give me hope.
Engineering, you were a tool to bring me to my knees, a tool that made me realize I was poor in spirit and needed God. You were a tool that humbled me and allowed me to go before God. You were a tool that broke my pride and brought me grace. I say thank you engineering for allowing yourself to be used as a tool. I am grateful for the journey we went on together. I have grown so much from the sweat and tears, from the praying and worshiping. Now I am alive, filled with Joy, full of grace and embraced in love and perfect peace.
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