The Wait

It amazes me the beauty that is found in waiting. The treasure is only found deep in the wait. It takes perseverance and patience that can’t be made up or imagined. You have to find these things in the one who calls you to wait. Waiting isn’t endured by keeping yourself busy on random things, but it is endured by engaging with The Lover of your soul. When you fix your eyes into His flaming eyes of love, you enter into His presence and into a world of glorious beauty. No longer are you thinking about the wait, but you are engaged, you are fixated on the marvelous wonder of the Lover of your soul. Your mind is seeing and hearing into His mind, your heart is beating to the rhythm of His heart. You are now in a communion with the Lover of your soul, and now you can dance. You dance to heavenly harmonies and beats your soul has never heard before. Your heart continues to melt from the liquid love that He is pouring into it. Your body’s sensitivity is heightened, not physically but spiritually. For this moment your body gets a taste of what heaven feels like; a foreshadow of the new heavenly bodies that is promised to His bride. Minutes feels like days, hours like centuries, but the taste of His goodness feels like eternity.

                You sit and you soak, you dance and you sing, you laugh and you smile, you play and you cry with joy. A well is being built; it goes deeper with each encounter, deeper with each moment of a heavenly experience. A well so deep it has no end, filled with living water; water for you to drink and others to taste. But this well is a secret and sacred well. A well made from love, a well that only lovers can make and share. It was created from love and nurtured by love. The source of the water is from rivers of living water directly from the throne of grace, the place where sons and daughters go, the place where life is lived.

                When you follow this river and come face to face with the One sitting on the throne of grace- the precious mercy seat, you have found the treasure. You have found the very thing that draws you to wait. This person is the reason for the wait. Waiting becomes beautiful when you encounter the well and living waters, and come to the One sitting on the heavenly throne. Now the adventure begins, now the wait has meaning and produces fruit, now you can live.  

Times of Loneliness and Boredom

    Times of loneliness and boredom are times meant to be with God. These two feelings are indicators that we need to spent time hanging out with God. Our souls are lonely and it wants to be with someone great, it wants to interact with someone that will blow our minds and gives us a time of our lives. We are not satisfied with just anyone; we need more, we need someone that is supernatural, someone all powerful, someone that, when we are face to face with will bring us to our knees in worship.

Boredom lets us know that we can no longer be entertained by the things around us, we need something real and tangible, we need the one true real God, the living God that created us for His purpose. We are no longer interested in the things of the world. We are not happy with the material things. We are discontent, we are not happy with just keeping ourselves busy, because that doesn’t settle the boredom. Keeping oneself busy does not cure boredom. Fulfillment in being with God does.

Loneliness and boredom is God’s ways of calling us to be with Him. He is calling us to spend time with Him. He wants to talk with us, sing and dance with us, play, laugh and smile with us. He wants to go on dates with us. He wants to saturate our lives with Himself. He wants to show us marvelous secrets and mysteries. He wants to pour all of Himself in us. He wants to sit with us and hold us. The lover of our soul just wants to love and be with us. That is the heart of God. And we all hear His heart when we are lonely and bored. We don’t know that it is him calling, but eventually we will know and when we finally realize that it is Him calling, we will respond in excitement because at this moment, we are filled with purpose and companionship that our souls long for. Now, every time you feel lonely or bored, know that it is the God of heaven and earth calling you to be with Him; calling you to experience something great and authentic only He can provide. The God of love, the lover of your soul is drawing you to Himself.

Now, what you do when you are with Him is the surprise and pleasure. He reveals things like never before. We come back full of life and joy. We are excited about living and the things God has for our lives.

The quiet, dull moments of life shouldn’t discourage us, it should excite us because God has set aside a time like today and everyday for us and him to be together; a time today for us to talk and enjoy Him. What a wonderful time to drink from the well of life when I am thirsty for life and get filled with life abundantly.

I am refreshed.

At the end of the day

At the end of the day Lord, it is just you and I. Sitting on my bed, ear phones on and plugged into my laptop, and songs of glory and beauty playing from the searches on youtube. After a long day of running around I can finally conclude the night with you. I can sit quietly and just enjoy your presence. I don’t have to say anything; I don’t have to do anything. I can just rest in your presence. Oh the joy of resting in the presence of the One who loves me with an everlasting love. The peace that surpasses all understanding quiets the thoughts of my heart. I am no longer restless, but rested. I am no longer fearful but confident. I am no longer worrying but abiding. I am no longer doubting but trusting. I am living freely; I am living like a royal prince sitting graciously with my heavenly Father. Humbly looking into the eyes of the God of mercy; captivated by the flames of passion in His eyes as he looks into the heart of my soul.

What wonderful gifts you have given me, to be a son of the Lord Most High, to be an heir with Christ in your heavenly Kingdom. Thank you Father for these gifts: of knowing you, of being in a relationship with you, of having unlimited access to you and walking continuously in your presence. At the end of the day it is you I long you spend it with. You are what my heart desires as the day comes to a close. Your presence calls out to me, “come my son and rest with me, come and embrace my love, come and lay everything aside and abide in Me.”, my heart can’t help but to respond to this call, “Yes Lord, I am coming, I am here, I am abiding.” 

My prayer of interaction

Lord I will give to other’s what you have given to me. I will not be stingy with the love you have poured into my heart. I will release your peace in my life, into the life of others. Whoever I am around I pray that your peace would surround them and comfort them. I pray that your presence would sooth their souls and uplift their spirits. I pray that as they interact with me, that you, oh Lord, would engage their spirit with your Spirit working in and through me. I ask that you would impart the love of Christ in their hearts and let the seed of your word to go deep into the soil of their hearts. I pray that you would keep the seed of faith and nurture it to full maturity. I pray that with each smile from me, they would be filled with over flowing joy. I pray that joy would bring healing to every part of their mind, emotions and body. I pray that they would know the true meaning and experience what it is like to have the joy of the Lord to be their strength.

After being with me, I pray that they would have a hunger for God. An unquenchable thirst would arise within their spirits and they would seek and pursue the heart of God. I pray that a passion for Christ would burn deep into the well of their hearts. I pray for that holy and righteous passion to consume their very being, and for them to be vessels of love and grace to their spheres of influence and throughout the world. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

I Can Make Decisions

Since the start of the New Year I have been faced with situations where I listen to other people’s judgment and opinions instead of using my wisdom and discernment and had to face the consequences of it. I’m not going to tell what they were, but what I will say is trust your own judgment and gut feelings. You have a mind to think and reason and you know yourself better than someone else may know you, especially when something will directly affect you, because at the end of the day you will be the one dealing with the situation. I am not saying don’t accept advice and counsel, we all need it and should seek it, but don’t throw away your judgment and feelings on things. Just because someone is telling you something, doesn’t mean they know what is always best.

                I am realizing more at the age of 25, I can make wise decisions and I can trust in the God in me to help guide me in my decision making process. I am grown enough to say “ You know what, I think I will do this instead of that”, “ I don’t feel comfortable doing this right now, something doesn’t seem right”, or the simple “No, I won’t”, or even more simpler the straight “No”. And the best thing is that I don’t have to give a reason. This might come as arrogance, but it’s not. It’s me being confident in making decisions and not just being thrown all over the place because I am not sure if I can trust myself. And it’s hard because you want to please everybody, but the truth is you can’t. It’s hard to grasp and walk this out at times, but I’m learning and growing.

                But the most amazing thing that I have learned through this whole experience of not trusting my wisdom and discernment and choosing others judgment over mine, is that God’s grace and mercy is abundant throughout the whole time. God gave me the strength, peace and as weird as it is, the joy to endure what resulted from those decisions. God was so merciful to me. He didn’t let me suffer or “pay the price”. It was wonderful to see God shower me with such love and mercy through my mess. The power of God’s grace is real. God loves to extend mercy; and he has done it abundantly to me and I love Him more for it. My heart is overwhelmed by such kindness and goodness to me. It just reassures me that I can live freely and not worry about making mistakes and having to suffer for my wrong decisions. Yes, there are results that occur from actions, but God will show His grace and mercy regardless if everyone else around me doesn’t. When the world and system condemns me and tries to make me “pay” God will whisper in my ears, “It has been paid in full. Now enter into my rest of the finish work of the cross”.