I Can Make Decisions

Since the start of the New Year I have been faced with situations where I listen to other people’s judgment and opinions instead of using my wisdom and discernment and had to face the consequences of it. I’m not going to tell what they were, but what I will say is trust your own judgment and gut feelings. You have a mind to think and reason and you know yourself better than someone else may know you, especially when something will directly affect you, because at the end of the day you will be the one dealing with the situation. I am not saying don’t accept advice and counsel, we all need it and should seek it, but don’t throw away your judgment and feelings on things. Just because someone is telling you something, doesn’t mean they know what is always best.

                I am realizing more at the age of 25, I can make wise decisions and I can trust in the God in me to help guide me in my decision making process. I am grown enough to say “ You know what, I think I will do this instead of that”, “ I don’t feel comfortable doing this right now, something doesn’t seem right”, or the simple “No, I won’t”, or even more simpler the straight “No”. And the best thing is that I don’t have to give a reason. This might come as arrogance, but it’s not. It’s me being confident in making decisions and not just being thrown all over the place because I am not sure if I can trust myself. And it’s hard because you want to please everybody, but the truth is you can’t. It’s hard to grasp and walk this out at times, but I’m learning and growing.

                But the most amazing thing that I have learned through this whole experience of not trusting my wisdom and discernment and choosing others judgment over mine, is that God’s grace and mercy is abundant throughout the whole time. God gave me the strength, peace and as weird as it is, the joy to endure what resulted from those decisions. God was so merciful to me. He didn’t let me suffer or “pay the price”. It was wonderful to see God shower me with such love and mercy through my mess. The power of God’s grace is real. God loves to extend mercy; and he has done it abundantly to me and I love Him more for it. My heart is overwhelmed by such kindness and goodness to me. It just reassures me that I can live freely and not worry about making mistakes and having to suffer for my wrong decisions. Yes, there are results that occur from actions, but God will show His grace and mercy regardless if everyone else around me doesn’t. When the world and system condemns me and tries to make me “pay” God will whisper in my ears, “It has been paid in full. Now enter into my rest of the finish work of the cross”.