Wanting to be noticed and recognized

Where does this desire or want of recognition and praise from man come from? I find myself wanting people to notice me. I want people to recognize the gifts and talents that I have. I want people to see the beauty and amazing-ness that God has made me to be. How can God be glorified by my life if people are not recognizing me? How can they give glory to God for who I am and what I do if they are not praising me? If I go unnoticed than God can’t be glorified by my life; he is unnoticed too. This is what goes through my mind, but is this true? I find myself wanting to get credit for things I say and do. I want to make sure I get the credit I deserve for coming up with something or being the first to think or say or do something. There is a lot of pride and love for what comes from me that I share and do in the world. Is it wrong to want to be noticed? Is it wrong to want to be recognized? Is it wrong to want to be praised and given honor for my life and the things I say and do? Where does this come from? How can I hide it? Why is it so hard to fight it? I want to do great and mighty things. I don’t want to just go through life, I want to make an impact in this life I live. I want people to notice God in me working and doing amazing things in me and through me. Since I am a new creation in Christ, is this desire wrong? Is this an old part of me that needs to be renewed?  There is a desire to be excellent and great in everything that I do. But how does this look like? How do I respond to it?

Why is it so hard to not say anything when the opportunity comes to say ”I was the one that said this” and “I was the one that done that”? “It was me, hello can’t you see that it came from me, I said it way before anyone thought of it”. When I first brought it up it was dismissed; it was pushed aside. And now when it comes up again, someone else receives the credit or credit goes to no one. Why do we or shall I say, I, have a desire to want my name to be attached to accomplishments and good things?

I wonder if it is because I always in need of encouragement, especially when it comes to knowing my worth and value.  I struggle at times believing that I am important and that I am valuable in the world around me. My significance is always being attacked. Negative thoughts creeps into my mind that compares me to others and makes me feel worthless. But God continues to tell me: I am his masterpiece, I was created for his joy and fulfillment, I was created for a purpose and future, I was created perfectly for his enjoyment and he loves to hang-out with me. Why should I call myself worthless when God, the lover of my soul, calls me precious and useful?  

I don’t need the recognition and praise of man, because I have the lover of my soul, the creator of everything rejoicing at my life. I have the most important person in the world loving me and encouraging me. I don’t need to grab onto worldly accomplishments and things to find my worth. I don’t need the words of man to lift me up, even if it does give me a quick fix. But true everlasting words that plants life, comes from God through a chosen person around me, that see’s me the way God the Father see’s me. They sense the Father’s heart for me and are compelled to demonstrate that love towards me. I am loved and accepted, I am never alone, I am precious, I am a masterpiece, I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Thank you Heavenly Father for your love that continues to heal me and bring me towards your truth.